Some days are diamonds

Social anxiety sucks. Full blown anxiety attacks are crippling. This is what I have been experiencing this week. I know I am a strange person and socially awkward. I am usually very quiet and rarely initiate conversation. This causes all kinds of problems when working among extroverts. One woman at work who disliked me since day one has been causing problems for me at work. This has resulted in many trips into the manager's office over her complaints against me.  Once she taunted me when I returned from a lunch break.  She said "Why is it that you never eat in the break room with the rest of us?" in a rather disgusted tone of voice. The reasoning is that  I simply prefer to get off the floor and walk outside and have some alone time.  Plus, I DESPISE eating in front of strangers. This break room is tiny and they are elbow to elbow. Sitting around laughing and cutting up while eating on top of each other. Hell no!  Not to mention that people look at your food and what you are eating in a seemingly judging way. I get really tired of people asking me what I am eating.
Anyways, as far as the anxiety attacks, I will go into it in another post. But I applied for another job in the hospital on the night shift and got it. It is just getting adjusted to new people that fills me with pure dread.