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 Since I last posted here in 2016, there have been a number of changes.
At the time I was dating someone. He came to visit from Alabama which was quite a drive and spent a few days with me. After a few days he went back to Alabama. Once there he called me. He told me, in tears, that he had met someone else and was breaking up with me. I was shocked as it was unexpected. But I wasn't mad. I wished him well and agreed we were better off as friends. There was an obvious lack of passion in the relationship which really stemmed from my decreasing and lack of interest in sex over the years. I have been single since that happened. Not only have I not dated, but I have been totally celibate for almost 5 years now. Things really come into perspective when you have a loveless and sexless life. Oddly enough, I am in a better place mentally than I have ever been. I have overcome two different, what I would call addictions in my life. Sex and booze.

I am also sober since I last blogged in 2016. I would drink heavily one or two nights a week back then/ Resulting in very serious hangovers. Thank God for those hangovers though, because it has been the reason that I quit drinking.

Back then, I was taking 3 HIV pills a day. Since then, I have since gone to a one pill a day regimine. I was initially on Triumeq. But I would wake up every morning feeling hungover. So at the beginning of 2021, I went to Symtuza. I had terrible debilitating diahrreah initially. Not to mention the gas. It was so bad that I went to my doctor and swore that I must have CDIFF. We tested my stool for bacteria. That was a god awful experience getting the samples ready. I did not have any CDIFF or bacteria, it was from the dreadful Symtuza. The diarreah has gotten a lot better though. Only striking with salty or greasy foods. I am still undectable thankfully. But I am now going into Diabetes 2 and have to inject myself with Ozempic to reverse it. 

But I am still here. 5/16/2021

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